Sugar Fast Day 29
I have a confession to make. Today I backslid BIG TIME. In the past when I have fallen short of a standard or a goal I set, the accuser comes at me in full force. Yet, I can see how I am growing stronger each day in my faith walk. Even though today was a few steps backwards, I will get back up and I won’t allow the voice of the enemy to keep me down.
A couple of weeks ago I joined am online coaching group. As a thank you and welcome, everyone one in the group was given a free drink at Starbucks. At first I was strong. I was determined to NOT cash in this gift because I was in the middle of a sugar fast. I was able to hold out for a couple of weeks, but then FOMO set in.
Fear of Missing Out
As the days went by I started rationalizing. I knew I was going to extend my fast until the end of February so I started telling myself that enjoying a free mocha wouldn’t be a big deal. I looked back to other occasions when I have “failed” and beat myself up and also told myself that breaking my fast for one cup of coffee would be an opportunity to “rise above the enemy voices” and NOT beat myself up. [Can you see where this is going?]. So, this morning I got myself a tall Starbucks mocha, a free gift, and enjoyed every last drop.
It was great and I didn’t feel bad about myself. Well, this choice was the first domino to fall and by mid-day I have also eaten things that I know have sugar in them or cause the body to create sugar–bread, peanut butter and pasta. So, what am I going to do with all of this?
It’s All About Choices
I have a choice. I can tell myself I am a failure, that I might as well give up and continue to indulge in sugary treats I don’t really want to consume. OR I can admit I made those choices, surrender everything to God and GET BACK UP!! I am immediately reminded that God’s word says the battle is not mine to win or lose, but His.
for the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give you the victory.’ (Deuteronomy 20:4)
And he said, “Listen, all Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem and King Jehoshaphat: Thus says the Lord to you, ‘Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed at this great horde, for the battle is not yours but God’s. (2 Chronicles 20:15)
And that all this assembly may know that the Lord saves not with sword and spear. For the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give you into our hand.” (1 Samuel 17:47)
So, I made some poor choices today, but tomorrow is another day with new opportunities to make different and better choices. I will get back up!!!