Sugar Fast Day 9
As humans I think we are all looking for significance. Note–This is a post from my first sugar fast in 2022.
Today I find myself pondering and looking for significance. Most days I feel pretty insignificant. Yet I long to make a lasting difference in the world. The Bible says I should not love the things of this world, but be transformed by renewing my mind. (Romans 12:2) What exactly are “the things of this world”?
For everything that belongs to the world — the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride in one’s lifestyle — is not from the Father, but is from the world. And the world with its lust is passing away, but the one who does God’s will remains forever. (1 John 2:16-17)
Discerning why I want significance isn’t easy. I don’t believe I am looking for accolades, to be puffed up by others or for my own gain. I want to make an impact for God. This life He has given me is a gift. When I meet my Savior I want Him to say, “well done good and faithful servant”. I do not want to have wasted this life I have been given.
COMING ALIVE
I have been numb for so long. Covid (and sugar consumption) simply added fuel to the fire. But as I rid my body of sugar and surrender my life to God, I open myself to His refining work in me. Coming awake after being numb takes some time and some discomfort. (Think of the pins and needles you experience when your leg falls asleep).
In my office I have to following hanging on my wall:
Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10)
I may not understand yet how God wants to use my life, but I want to be still and wait on the Lord as He wakes me up from the numb.
2024 Update
As I mentioned in a previous post, God wooed me out of the numbness and once I surrendered and followed His will, my feelings of insignificance have decreased. I am excited to see where God takes me on the entrepreneurial journey and who He will connect me with. Stay tuned…