Sugar Fast Day 5
For me, the time between Christmas and New Year’s is difficult. I experience the Christmas blues. It feels like a grumbling in my soul; an unrest and a deep frustration with life. My thoughts are fuzzy; somedays it feels like trying to walk through molasses.
In the summer God showed me a dream He wanted me to birth and I have been busy bringing that dream to fruition. Yet where God will take this dream and the path it will take are still unclear. I liken the feeling to being pregnant yet the baby will NOT come out. This is not a good feeling and I have spent time hiding and numbing these feelings. I should be asking God to show me His path and surrendering to what He wants to do through me, but instead I’ve hidden within hours and hours and hours of Netflix; I have numbed with lots and lots of sugar.
My A-HA Moment
It wasn’t until New Year’s Eve that I stopped hiding and admitted my problem. These Christmas blues were directly related to my sugar intake. My relationship with sugar is out of hand. Out of hand is probably an understatement. It is an addiction. Acknowledgement and surrender brought me to this sugar fast. The fast led to finding healthier food choices. Healthier food choices began to clear my mind to recognize triggers and truths.
On day 3 I said I was in this fast for more than just losing body fat and a healthier diet. Today I see that what I really want is to step into God’s unique purpose for my life, embrace it and allow Him do His will through me. I can see now that ridding my body of and surrendering my sugar intake to God is my first step. One day at a time, one step at a time, I am ready to discover and walk in the good works God has for me
For we are His creation, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared ahead of time so that we should walk in them (Ephesians 2:10)